"These Words are Knives and Often Leave Scars"

I've been completely obsessed with one song/music video lately and I needed to get out my feelings about this, so I'm back to this blog. Recently, Panic! At The Disco released a new album called Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die! The one song that stuck out to me was This Is Gospel. I never knew that a song could mean so much to me until I heard this one. If you haven't seen the video, or at least heard the song, click here before continuing: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGE381tbQa8 To me, the song is about all the rejects/outcasts/what have you that are different from what the world wants us to be. The video has a lot of symbolism from what I could see. At the beginning, the surgeons are trying to pin him down and take his heart, his passion. Then, they try to convince him to be like everybody else and dress him like a business man. He's going to die at his job (in the coffin) and be drowned with routine and have no chance for spontaneity or individuality. He bursts out of there, saying, "I won't give up without a fight!" The enemies realize that they're losing him so they get inside of his mind and use his own thoughts and anxieties against him. These would be the ropes that they pull out of his body and use to hold him back. At the end, he loses the ropes and dies, but he dies fighting. He never gives up. This whole song and video means more to me than any other has before. My favorite lyrics are probably "Truth be told, I never was yours", "The gnashing teeth and criminal tongues conspire against the odds, but they haven't seen the best of us yet", and "I won't give up without a fight". It's a song of hope and encouragement that inspires me every day. I wish I could make everyone in the world understand the message of this song, but this blog will have to do for now. :)

I'm Exhausted, So This Isn't Very Deep Of A Post

A lot of people look at how horrible the world is instead of looking at the good things. You know what's really nice? Pizza. Pizza's pretty awesome. It's pretty difficult to mess up pizza. If I'm ever really upset at the world, I can just think about the wonderful creation of pizza. I'm not trying to be goofy; pizza's just great. If you don't like pizza, that confuses me quite a lot, but that's okay too. I still think pizza is one of the best creations ever.

Pj Liguori: kickthepj

In case you haven't heard of Pj Liguori, he's a British YouTuber who loves art and music. I've been watching his videos for a while now, and he's probably my favorite YouTuber. His videos are full of creativity and originality. The other day, I was thinking about a certain video of his I had watched a long time ago. When I first watched it, I thought, "This is really cool, maybe I'll make some art someday." A few days ago, I realized that I should take his advice and do it now. Since that thought, I've started writing a story, written a full song, drawn some fun doodles, and encouraged others to create art. I'm very thankful for what he's done for me! I don't really have much more to say about this; I think Peej puts it best :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8h6tQDenLUY

Worship Music

I came downstairs this morning to hear the Christian radio station on the TV. Mom had turned it on to relax the dogs. I was sitting there petting Hunter, and thinking about the music. To me, it seems like worship music is like a genre now. It's like when you hear a song and you think, "This is a heavy metal song," or "This is a punk song." I could easily hear a song and think, "This is a worship song." Now, I don't know how others might feel about this, but it really perturbs me. I believe we can worship God with any genre of music, not just the typical kind. Personally, I generally use heavier music to worship when I'm alone. I don't always, but that's my preference. I'm not suggesting we do a lot of heavy music either, and I realize that some may have the preference of the "worship style." I merely think it would be great for us to use various genres in church and at church events! After all, God loves every genre as long as we're singing and playing for Him, right? Maybe I'm the only one who thinks this way, but I really think it could be wonderful if we tried it.

Warning: Strong and Maybe Misinformed Opinions

School makes me very angry. I know a lot of teenagers hate it, but I have serious reasons. I don't like to be forced to learn things; I'd rather research stuff that I'm interested in and learn that way. Weird, kooky topics are very fascinating to me, not how to find imaginary numbers or boring, useless things like that. I'd love to learn about women's rights, how strange traditions came about, and lots more about music. Yet, there's not that much about that kind of stuff in my history lessons. Most of the lessons are topics that I could google to learn about. It really ticks me off that I still have to memorize facts I could easily find out from the internet. Now this I've been able to handle so far, but there's something else that makes me really ticked. It takes up my time. Time is very precious. I could be using it to write songs or stories, work on my drawing, learn from wonderful TV shows like Doctor Who, or even just taking a walk. I said in an earlier blog post that I'd like to start exercising more, but it's going to be very hard since I have to get all my school done as well. I really don't like the way society is set up at all. Our teenage years could be used to explore subjects that interest us, and experience hands-on learning. Schools are so cruel and cold, but even when you're home-schooled, the school setup is still imposing on you. It's like testing your memory is the most important thing, and if you don't have a great memory, then you're not that smart. It's idiotic to me, really. I guess I'll never understand this stuff, but I sure won't stop being upset about it. (Sorry if my opinions were offensive)

David Tennant (Spoiler Alert: Don't read unless you've seen all the Doctor Who episodes with Ten)

There are so many wonderful things that could be said about David Tennant, but I'm only going to talk about one special thing, his superior acting. Keep in mind I've only seen him in Doctor Who, but I'm sure to change that fact. David grew up watching the show, and wanting to play the Doctor one day. Watching it from such a young age certainly helped him understand and seamlessly portray the Doctor. When watching episodes, there have been times where I forgot he was acting. That hardly ever happens to me! One episode in particular really amazed me, The End of Time: Part 2, where he has a complete breakdown as the Doctor. In that scene, he's just completely immersed in the character. There's no way to explain how that scene makes me feel. It's like the Doctor isn't just a character anymore; he's a real person. The pain and frustration is so clear to the viewer that it makes most people sob. When he's crawled up on the floor of the chamber, it seems that nothing could ever be as bad as what he's going through. Gosh, it hurts so much. This scene is so heartbreaking and tragic, but in the most beautiful way. The whole episode is wonderfully written, but David Tennant makes it even better. I don't believe anyone could ever show pain and sadness in a more genuine way when acting. Although he's best at showing bad emotions, he's still very good at showing happiness and being quite hyper at times. He is definitely one of my favorite actors of all time, and I hope to see more of his work soon! (P.S. Go watch Doctor Who right now if you never have!)

How Doctor Who Has Helped Me In Life

When I first started watching Doctor Who, I wasn't sure if I would like it that much at all. It didn't take long for me to love the show though. After becoming emotionally attached to characters in (and becoming a little bit obsessed with) the show, I started to realize there were some very good life lessons to learn from it. The Doctor in particular helped me to learn that you should care about every living being. Even if they were cruel to him, he would try to help them live. In the last episode of the fourth season, he saves the life of his worst enemy, the Master, who returns the favor by sacrificing himself so the Doctor could live. Not everyone returned the favor as the Master did, but the Doctor still helps everyone no matter if they want to kill him or not. This has inspired me to be more caring towards others and try not to explode my anger on people. Another thing Doctor Who has done for me is that it has inspired me to be more creative. I wrote an instrumental song on the piano for the tenth doctor that I titled "Ten," and have been inspired to work on different art projects I've thought of creating. The last thing I can think of off the top of my head is that I feel more adventurous and full of childlike wonder. I've decided I'd like to take more walks outside by myself and just study little details of things. Also, I'm going to try to exercise more to keep my spirits up (and just in case I need to run ;D) so that should be good for me. Overall, I'm so glad I started watching Doctor Who. Many people told me to watch it. Although I kind of ignored them for a while, eventually, I gave in, and I wouldn't change this experience for the world.